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That summer,

I came alive.

Beneath the burning sun

and the heat of his gaze

My skin unfolded,

revealing a wide-eyed nymph,

a blushing stranger

in my place.


I couldn’t swim;

but I remember he pulled me

into the water,

and gently immersing me

he performed my



And as I floated with him

I saw stars on the sea’s surface,

transient diamonds crowning him.


That brief summer,

I bordered on the


worshipping a lesser god,

the deity of the sun.


So that when the light faded

my faith came crashing down.

And I learned that

handmade gods

have human weaknesses

when he let me drown.


The Secret Diary and The Lonely Glove

I just watched the Japanese movie Closed Note—it was moving, sweet, and at times achingly sad (though in the end, I was smiling through my tears, I promise you). Without giving too much away, it’s about a girl named Kae (Erika Sawajiri, of 1 Litre of Tears fame—why does this girl always make me cry??) who discovers a diary in the house she has just moved into. It turns out to be the journal of the former tenant, schoolteacher Ibuki Mano (the angel-faced Yuko Takeuchi), and after trying to resist the temptation of reading someone else’s private thoughts, Kae soon finds herself inspired by Ibuki’s cheerful spirit, and intrigued by her love story.


Closed Note

The movie struck a chord with me, because I’ve always wanted to be a schoolteacher. I even used to help out in the pre-school classes of my teacher friends, and simple acts like tying shoelaces or reading a fairy tale to an enraptured little crowd was pure, unadulterated joy. But the one time I was given the chance to handle a class on my own, the kids just walked all over mouse-voiced, meek me. So that dream pretty much went kaput. But movies like these give me a chance to live vicariously (does a fictional account count as living vicariously?).

Anyway…There was a scene where Ibuki meets her crush Takashi, and the arches reminded me of those at the sprawling grounds of the Nanzen-Ji Temple located towards the end of the Philosopher’s Path in Kyoto, which my hubby and I visited in 2010.

Closed Note

I remember being enthralled by the surprise row of arches that didn’t seem to lead anywhere (but at this point, our feet were about to fall off after a full day of walking, so we were in no mood to explore further). Miracle of miracles, hubby agreed to pose for this cheesy token shot I love (taken by our travel buddies M and P).


Toto and Pierra. Kyoto, 2010


Also on the grounds of Nanzen-ji, I spied this cast-off glove lying on the roots of a tree. Something about this sight brought on a deep melancholy—the thought that it was carelessly abandoned or forgotten, and now missing its partner… It made me wonder about what happened here—did its owner peel it off to scratch an itch on her hand, or perhaps slap a philandering lover across the face? Had the glove been lying here for months, or mere minutes? Could its owner have been the girl that just brushed past me in haste? It made me wonder about its owner’s back story, and how people’s lives can intersect through forgotten diaries and discarded gloves…

Discarded glove. Kyoto, 2010

And thus, today’s random photo was brought to you (in a roundabout way) by last night’s viewing of Closed Note.


You don’t have to explain;

I know exactly what I meant

to you

I was a warm thing to hold

When you were cold

And your heart was broken

I was a ray of sunshine

When your world was bleak;

I never expected you to fall in love

With me


No need for your apology

You were frozen

And all I did

Was warm your heart

For someone else

To keep. 

Image Stray kittens photographed at the University of the Philippines campus, 2012.